One of those days....

Do you ever feel like you are having one of "those" days? One of "those" days could mean anything. It could mean something generic as just having a bad day or something a little more specific as everything you do turns out horribly wrong. Mine seems to be in the the middle.

The day was ok to begin with but then it took a left turn that I didn't see. Everything I have said to someone has been taken the wrong way and made them upset. Even if I try to fix it, it still turns out wrong. It is to the point of "I GIVE UP". I give up on talking to anyone. I will shut myself in my room and not come out until tomorrow comes. Sounds like a great plan, huh? As soon as I consider this plan, I realize exactly why I can't do this. For the same reason the whole world can't shut themselves away somewhere and hide; I have things I need to do. At the very minimum, I need to pick up my husband from work. That won't be until late tonight, though. So I can hide myself away in the meantime, right? Wrong! There are minor little errands I also need to do today, since payday is today. We have been waiting until payday to buy things that we need, like soap or food. Little things like hygiene are not always necessary to some people, but I like to think that I am above that and can at least manage to stay clean.

Now, the procrastinator in me says, Why do today what you can put off until tomorrow? This does not help when I am trying to turn over a new leaf and not do things like that. I suppose I could hide instead of in my room, out in the world. When you hide enough in the world, you begin to realize it is not all it is cracked up to be. I could go see a movie. I could go to the bookstore. These are some of my favorite places to go. When you are feeling a bit down and afraid to speak, then out in the world is not a place to hide. There are too many people out there who want to talk to you. So this is the conundrum, do I stay in my room and hide or do I go and hide in a crowd of people?

Now there is always the ever-present third option of not hiding, but after all of the fiascoes of today, I don't really want to attempt that just yet. The fact of the matter is I need to stop whining to myself or others and get over it. I think I will have to have a little "me" time to get myself straight and then stop hiding.

It is sad when you have to argue and then compromise with yourself just so you can make yourself feel better.