Hormones trick you. It takes away the logical part of your brain. Say you experience someone you think is throwing subtle barbs at you. Before pregnancy, you would have known for sure that it was or was not meant to be insulting. During hormone-ridden pregnancy, you think you know someone is throwing insults at you but are never really sure. Logically, what they said could be non-threatening. You could imagine that tone of voice that made it so.
If I try to explain to someone that just because I am unemployed does not mean I am home all day, then you would think that would be the end of it. I feel like I have to justify it everyday. So when someone asks you what time you are going to be somewhere, you left your day open so you could be available for this, and you told them this several times, you would think it would be settled. Instead I get when are you going to be there. I say I can be there when you call me to be there. Simple answer, right? Wrong. The response is that you always say you are busy and never home so I wanted to make sure you could be there.
Now that I have explained this situation, understand that without hormones I would have been able to tell if this was a subtle barb at me not staying home and cleaning up her mess everyday. With hormones, I am not sure I am making it up or not. It still hurts like it was intentional, but it could all be in my mind. How can you tell when it is not so obvious? I have yet to find an answer. If anyone has an answer, let me know. That way I don't go psycho on someone for no reason.
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